Friday, April 18, 2014

diary entry from within these four walls

I really should post more often if I expect anyone to be able to keep up with what's going on around here. I have a goal of once a week and that hasn't happened by a long stretch.

Georgiana has been home for the second time since March 1st and has been doing so much better this time around. She's such a happy baby...you'd never know by her attitude all she's been through. She's still on the small side though..just passed 8lbs on Monday and today she is 14weeks old (8 adjusted). Time flies when you spend all your time with a baby!!

She is the most precious thing and I love waking up Saturday morning with her so happy and cooing and Justin being at home. She definitely loves spending time with her daddy since she has me to herself all day every day. She and I spend most days cuddling...I'm soaking in every minute I have with her...soon I will be going back to work. I really wish I could take a few years off but we need the money. I've been out for far too long and have been very lucky to have been able to be there for her and with her during her hospital stays and to have a few great weeks at home just me & her while daddy is at work. Its time now for me to get back to reality though.

I'm currently spending two weeks away from my little family in isolation due to receiving my radioactive iodine treatment on Wednesday...I'm only on day 3 and I feel like such a prisoner. I've literally been locked in a bedroom at my Mom's house...only leaving the confines of these four walls to go to the bathroom which is right outside the door. Mom has me set up with a tiny dorm size fridge from their shop so I'm just hanging out no TV or anything...just internet and books to entertain me. After tomorrow I should be able to go out for short periods of time as long as I stay a certain distance from my mom & step dad.. These last few days have been rough. I just want my sweet cuddle bug but of course I'm here because I don't want her exposed to the radiation...so it will be next month before I see her or Justin again.

The treatment itself wasn't so bad. I just had a little swelling in my neck and my mouth has been dry and has a nasty taste. I keep brushing my teeth but it won't go away. Today everything I drink tastes so sweet when normally it does not. I was so tired after the treatment I slept for the better part of 24 hours...and I'm not entirely sure I was that tired just from the treatment...having a 3 month old that still wakes twice in the night wears on you.

I go next week on the 25th to do my whole body scan to see if the cancer had spread anywhere else. I'm sure I won't get those results until I see the doctor next month though.